As you may be aware I was recently attuned to karmic reiki. I haven’t worked specifically with the energy but recently I have found that I have picked up past lives in my clients’ auras whilst giving them reiki and I feel that this attunement has enabled me to do this.
One client has had a profound experience from this and has agreed that I may share her experiences with you in order for you to see just how much we can be affected by past life experiences that we have brought through to this life. This case study also shows how much emotion we store inside ourselves, which, if allowed to build up may even manifest as a physical dis-ease. It also shows how reiki lifts our emotions and limiting beliefs and thoughts to the surface so that we are able to release them. It isn’t a quick fix but takes time and effort from the healee’s point of view to heal the issues and the emotions.
When I first met Anna she told me that she was reiki attuned but hadn’t used it for some time. She then went on to give me an understanding of what had happened to her during the last eighteen months which had proved to have been a traumatic time in her life. There had been lots of issues around the house she had been living in and she had been forced to move. She also said that she had issues with her mother and with men. She explained that she is a single mother with twins aged seven and told me that she does gardening and dog walking whilst the twins are at school. At this time, her sleep pattern was poor, often waking twice a night and she felt completely exhausted. She was having vivid dreams and sometimes got insomnia. Anna said that she loved cooking but found herself comfort eating a lot of the time.
She had been given my business card by a friend who had picked it up and had intended to ring someone else for an appointment but rang my number inadvertently. She realised that the universe had wanted her to come to me. This was the start of an interesting journey with reiki for both of us.
During her first healing I noticed that Anna’s head was very busy and I felt that there were things she didn’t want to hear or was afraid of hearing because she felt she couldn’t live up to the expectations of others. There was a lot of anger attached to the past and fear around the future. Her throat chakra was quite closed and I felt that she wasn’t able to express herself fully, but that it would come to a point where she could no longer hold back and then everything would come tumbling out all at once far more aggressively than she intended.
There was a lot of anger and pain in all her chakras and I felt that she was fighting to be herself but that she felt inadequate. There was a fear around her stability and she was frightened that she was not going to be able to hold everything together. She carried a huge weight on her shoulders and seemed to struggle with the weight she was carrying.
Anna was able to relate to everything I told her and we agreed that she would try keeping a dream diary, to see if this would help give her an understanding of what her dreams were trying to tell her.
The next time I saw Anna she told me that her sleep pattern was still poor, she had been passing urine more frequently, (which often happens post reiki as it helps to clear the toxins) her energy was low and she didn’t have time for anybody and was being very selective over who she spent time with.
As is always the case with reiki the next treatment was very different. I felt her head was flitting from one thing to another as if she was trying to make sense of things. As I moved to her heart chakra I felt a lot of pain and was then aware of her father. I saw him holding her hand and taking her to school. I described him to Anna and she confirmed that it was her father and that he had passed over some years ago. I told her that he wanted her to talk to him and that he was telling me that he was very proud of her and her children. I found myself being drawn to her shoulders and her father told me that he wanted to take some of the burdens away for her. He told me that Anna was to talk to the angels and give them her problems. They would then guide her to the answers.
There was a lot of anger in her energy system, some directed towards her father but a lot directed to herself and I told Anna she needed to stop beating herself up and look at the positive areas of her life and what she had achieved. I also picked up that she had been having stomach problems and lower back pain which she confirmed. The energy in her legs was like treacle. I needed to roll the energy to try and move it as it had become so stagnant. Anna took on board everything I had told her after the treatment and I left her to mull things over in her own mind, but knowing that if she wished to discuss anything she could call me before the next treatment.
At her third treatment Anna told me that she felt more confident and had been really pleased that her dad had come through. She said that her emotions were calmer, that she felt she had more clarity and although she was still dreaming, the dreams were not as erratic. She also told me that her stomach and back pains were settling. She was still less tolerant than normal and had noticed that she was pushing people away who caused a ‘hurricane’ around her.
During this treatment I felt that Anna had lots of creative ideas coming through that she was pushing away. I was told that she was starting to hear and listen to the signs she was being given. Her head was still a bit disordered but I could feel more order coming in bringing clarity with it. Once I was over Anna’s shoulders I could feel tension within her whole body which I felt was coming from the burdens she was carrying. There was still some anger evident in her energy system and I felt that she was having a battle between her logical and intuitive sides. The energy in her legs was a bit better but felt as if she was ‘stuck in the mud’
At Anna’s feet I saw an ice queen with almost angelic wings and felt as if she was being deceived again and needed to look beneath the surface.
Anna could relate to everything I told her after this treatment and realised that she needed to allow her creative side to come through more in order to achieve more balance in her life.
The following week Anna told me that she was struggling with people and being more selective as to who she wanted in her life. She had felt very tired after the last treatment and had had a very poignant dream which we both felt was helping her to clear her emotions. Anna said that she was finding fault with everything, she felt that she was boring and had no value. She felt like a machine, was intolerant and still not sleeping very well. Her throat ached and she felt heavy in her back and chest.
In this treatment Anna’s head was very busy as if she was shifting out all the rubbish. I felt that she needed to do more creative things and that she wasn’t listening to the signs again. There was a lot of anger connected to the past that had surfaced again and when I was over her shoulders I felt that Anna sees intolerance as a burden. I felt that she needed to look at what people where reflecting back to her as they were parts of her that she needed to accept as part of her make up.
At Anna’s throat chakra I felt that she wanted to be very critical, even damning of people, which was causing her to fight with her non-judgemental side. Over her heart chakra there was emptiness, sadness and loneliness which I felt all stemmed from the past. I felt she needed to look inside for the love that she craved. In her lower chakras she was beating herself up again and fighting with herself. The energy in her legs and feet was still quite stagnant.
We had a long conversation about the shadow self after this treatment and how sometimes people come into our lives to highlight that part of ourselves which we don’t like and need to heal. Often when a trait is mirrored to us it is accentuated and our immediate reaction is to be irritated by it but that what we needed to do was look more deeply at ourselves and accept that it is a part of our make up that we can do something about. We are then in a position to show compassion and forgiveness not only to the person displaying those characteristics that we don’t like but also to ourselves.
When I saw Anna the following week for her fifth treatment she had a sore/raspy throat. She said she had been investigating her shadow side, trying to understand what she didn’t like about herself and how she could heal and change that. She had also been thinking about her relationship with her mother as she knew she had issues she needed to let go of.
Her sleep pattern was much better although she was having vivid dreams again which she felt were more like messages. Her energy was better when she had slept properly and she was taking each day as it came.
This treatment had a very profound effect on us both. Anna still had battles going on between her logical and creative sides. Her ears felt blocked but more so, on the right than the left and I felt it was connected to a man. Her throat was unbalanced with the right side taking more energy than the left and again I felt this was connected to a man and a past life.
When I was over Anna’s shoulders the energy on the right side of them felt very stuck and heavy. I saw a female slave being beaten at a plantation. I felt the slave was Anna and the man whipping her was her mother in this life. Anna didn’t deserve to be beaten and I felt that as the slave she held a lot of resentment towards the man who was giving her the beating.
There was sadness and loneliness still in the heart chakra and as I moved further along her energy system I felt there was a lot of anger directed towards several different people both male and female.
The information about the slave in the plantations intrigued us both and Anna told me that she had always had a hankering to visit New England. When I got home I googled plantations and found that there had been a lot in the New England area of America. I texted Anna to tell her and she told me that she had picked up a book that she had had for a while after I had left. The page she had opened the book at had had a picture of a plantation on it. We both felt that this information I had picked up was extremely significant to some of the issues going on in her present life.
This reiki session in fact caused a powerful cleansing giving Anna a healing crisis. She had had an upset stomach for a few days and rang me to see what I thought and what she could do to settle her body down. I confirmed that she was probably having a healing crisis as there was a lot of “crap” for her to shift from that past life. I suggested that she put some clear quartz onto her abdomen to help with the healing and clearing.
When I saw her a few days later she said that her stomach had settled with the help of the clear quartz and that other people had commented on how much better she looked. She still felt quite angry but could feel her sense of humour coming back. She felt as if she had been living in a mist for a very long time that had now been lifted. She found herself being forthright in a subtle kind of way.
Anna told me that authoritarian figures had always made her feel uncomfortable and inferior but that she no longer felt like that. She was aware that a lot of men that were attracted to her were just looking for fun and she felt uncomfortable with this but she had noticed that her attitude towards men was changing.
We decided to cut the ties between Anna and this past life to help her let go of the issues she had brought through. In any situation and whenever we form any kind of relationship with someone we put out etheric ties and they are also sent to us from the situation or the other person. When a relationship ends these ties can be broken quite harshly and that is what causes us so much pain.
The intention behind cutting the ties for Anna was to release all ties that no longer served her i.e. the negative thoughts, beliefs and emotions that were attached to the situation in the past life in the plantation as she was no longer experiencing this life. Only ties of love would be left. To do this I talked Anna through a meditation asking Archangel Michael to cut the ties, Archangel Raphael to cauterise them with unconditional love and healing and Saint Germaine of the violet flame to transmute all negativity into positive energy. As we did this I was aware of some very thick cords at the solar plexus, sacral and root chakras and also at the ankles that were being cut away.
I did a shortened reiki treatment after we cut the ties and noticed that her head was a lot calmer than it had been during the previous treatments. There was still a lot of anger connected to the past and fear around the future and what her life purpose really was. I felt her ears had cleared as if she was ready and willing to hear so that she could heal.
Her heart was still a bit closed off which felt connected to the past. At her shoulders I felt as if a huge weight had been lifted off. There was a lot of anger in her solar plexus. Anna was angry with herself for allowing her self-esteem and self confidence to be battered and angry with others for doing this to her. There was anger in her sacral chakra connected to past relationships and the rest of her energy felt quite balanced.
After the treatment Anna said that she felt one tie being cauterised and it had made her jump. She had found that she was very aware of the high vibration energies that had come in to help with the cutting of the ties.
As you can see from these treatments I was given a lot of information to pass onto Anna to help her to understand why she behaved in the way she did towards men and her mother, over a series of six treatments. We both realised that the last two reiki treatments had enabled her to release a lot of negative emotion, helping her to take a huge step forward in her current life. Anna has realised that even though she has had six treatments with me there is still a lot of healing to be done and has agreed to continue having treatments with me.
After the cutting the ties treatment, Anna and I spoke at length about the past life in the plantation as a slave. Here is what she had to say:
“I was once called a man hater by the man who was my match sexually, who then became the father of my very beautiful children. Thankfully I did not give him my heart and soul fully and am very grateful for that now as I know now that through the hands of fate, mother nature, the course of the universe, the hands of time whatever you want to call it, I had things to deal with from the past a long time ago.
From a very young age I was very aware of men, of their actions, looks, and subconscious thoughts. I never felt completely comfortable around them apart from my father of course. I reached puberty at the very young age of 9 years and proceeded to grow up very quickly. Unfortunately boys were not very kind in the process and I found I started to feel very conscious around the ones that had been my friends from a young age. I had a wonderful first love which was heartbreaking in the end. It’s the stories in between and there on that I suppose you put down to experience.
I cannot quite pin point when I realised that the experiences I had had through my relationships did not add up to the reactions I had to men. Yes I had had controlling almost bullying relationships but my self-esteem was not great anyway. I love the idea of love. I am every princess, heroine and broken hearted lover in every movie or book I have seen so why do I end up with the rough diamonds of life (lessons maybe). Some people would say you put out what you draw back and others say I find those ones more exciting. The fact is I find funny men very good company, intelligent men daunting but wonderful, powerful men in suits such as directors, managers, and lawmen, distant and cold. The ones that have to prove themselves, assert their manhood, talk to you as though you are an object of sex or less intelligent, Lord of the manor and money orientated are the men I find intimidating and ignorant.
If I can explain that if you put me in a bar I will always end up talking and laughing with the guys. It’s the same at any party or get together. I have always enjoyed men’s company, but I have however been in the company of very arrogant, selfish, rude men and have continued to talk, thinking that I would be considered bad mannered for leaving.
This is where its starts. I used to find it hard to back away, stand up for myself, say ‘no’ to invitations or drinks even a good night kiss, feeling that I was obligated to say yes. I would be persuaded to go for a drink or to the other extreme convinced to stay the night with them even if nothing sexual happened. I am not going to be precious about this and feminist these are my feelings and thoughts but I have given in to the ‘what will they think of me’ scenario a lot if I had said no. I used to be faced with the most bizarre situations and it was like somebody else was thinking for me and I could not find the reasons to say no or stand up for myself for fear of upsetting the other person. But on the other hand I was also very selfish because I have met several men all of whom the chemistry was very strong with, where, because of the naïve romantic notion that, if it is that strong you should follow you’re heart, I have ended up being hurt and hurting other people.
Again here I was acting from me with added personality. I have never quite understood what I wanted from a relationship and I always feel I have to give to receive. Since I have had one past life come through and I believe I have had many, it has all slotted into place- why I felt obligated, bullied, intimidated and in awe of very male men and at the same time why I like men to be men. I am able to be more assertive now and not have to explain myself, but just to say no. I still struggle with the oversensitive issue and feeling that I have to explain myself all the time. But I am trying to understand that too. Since having my ties cut to my past life other physical things have slotted into place I am a worker of the land I work very hard and consistently I struggle in any closed environment i.e. an office.
I understand also why I do not like unnecessary pain or being pushed into something. I hate being ordered around and like to think for myself. I have hurricane lamps everywhere and candlelight. I do not like doors I cannot see around and have removed them from my house for a cosier open plan living. Curtains are my doorways. I have a longing to see New England and knew the words uncannily to Amazing Grace from a very young age!!!!!!!!!
As for the romantic stuff well I don’t like dates I think they are a waste of time, I like to get to know people in normal surroundings. The point of a relationship to me is to spoil yourselves together whilst you are in it and I feel having shifted this past life tie might bring me closer to an intended. The men in question I find attractive are character wise like Doc Martin and Mr. Darcy- yeah I know moody, quiet, rude, arrogant but underneath all that a loving man and a gentle one.!!!!!!!!
It took having my children to make me realise that I had known on a subconscious level that I had a very controlling mother. I think to put it mildly I chose to ignore and accept it for a very long time. Her word was the law and I felt guilty when challenging it. To be brief I had a lovely childhood. All the things that should have been there were, except the truth between my parents.
I now understand that I am a product as such, of my parent’s secrets and what I know now fits the pieces of the puzzle together. There were affairs and secret drinking and protecting the children and trying to gain financial status. I believe as a very young child I picked up on atmospheric conditions and felt things I did not understand. They loved each other dearly and I don’t know what went wrong but it has confused and altered my way of thinking about family life a lot.
If I was to explain now all of the moments that my mother has said and done things that have caused me pain we would still be here next week. I do not deny that I have probably said and done things to cause her pain as well. But I did have an unnecessary resentment toward her. My father died of liver failure and said some terrible things but I did not resent him, just a little angry maybe.
So with my mother I go round and round in circles, I have screamed at myself, fallen on the floor in a heap with frustration and exhaustion because she does not get it and I am not an all round east Londoner with FAMILY in the way that she was brought up.
I have asked myself the continuous question as to why I resent her so. I know that with the law of the universe you cannot wholly blame your parents for your mistakes or blame another person for how you are but you cannot deny me that it does have an affect as I look at myself everyday with my children. So a big shock when my past life came about.
I had an experience recently with a man who actually was supposed to be a friend and he made me feel terrible, my mother three months later made me feel the same. I accept that she had her own bad things going on, but it was more the fact that she tried to baffle me with bullshit really.
So since that past life tie has been cut I realise that maybe it’s not my lessons to learn from her, but maybe her lessons to learn from me. When challenged by my mother, I sit back and think about it and then tell her what I want to do. I believe she wanted a lot more control over the children and as I am talking now I can feel a tightness because she does not have it and do you know what? I feel bad about that; which is crazy. I would not say everything is sorted, I don’t think it ever will be but I am now in control”.
Healing is a life long experience and reiki is one way in which we can heal all the past pain and negative emotions and beliefs, not just from this life but from many previous lives as well. These treatments have had a profound effect on Anna, giving her an understanding of why she is the way she is. It has also shown me how wonderful using the reiki energy is and how it can help to give clarity as well as release all the negative thoughts, beliefs and emotions that no longer serve us.
Our view point changes on things because we have an understanding of what is causing the issues. We are then able to offer forgiveness to those involved in the pain as well as ourselves, thus giving us the opportunity to truly heal. When we are able to do this we react in different ways to situations as we no longer hold old thought patterns and behaviours and when we react in a more positive way our whole world changes for the better around us.
