As my vibration has continued to rise I have become much more aware of the signs that the universe is giving me about issues that I need to go within, look at, and heal.

One of my clients today told me that she now realises how important it is to get to the root cause of any issue and the only way that that can be done, is by going inward.

I have had a few interesting experiences recently which I will share with you. The first was a neighbour complaining about me having my fence painted and the paint having splattered through the slats of the fence making what she considered to be a mess.

The next incident was a complaint from a neighbour about my daughter parking over his driveway ( even though he has no car and uses a pushbike!).

On discussion with a friend I realised there was a common theme here relating to boundaries. I realised that maybe I needed to look at the boundaries I have in place for family members and also clients as certainly at times the boundaries are pushed by both.

Interestingly this week I have had all of my particularly ‘needy’ clients showing a lack of respect for my time and also not actually wanting to think for themselves.

Just as examples, one of them seems to see me as a miracle worker who will fix everything for her even though I have told her that all I can do is facilitate the energy healing and then she has to make the changes in her life that will lead her onto a happier path. She needed to change her appointment and asked for the next available appointment which was in 2 weeks time and then demanded that I give her something sooner, which I don’t have.

Another denied cancelling her appointment with me and demanded to be seen at the original time and was furious that I had filled the slot.

Another talked over me on the phone when I was trying to explain something and when I said I had to go because my next client had arrived continued to talk to me. I had to reiterate that I needed to go and then had to put the phone down on her to be able to get on and help my next client.

What I was aware of again was boundaries being pushed and a lack of respect for me, and my time.

So I am addressing the issues with boundaries and have been making sure that they are clearer for people so that I am not expected to be at everyone’s beck and call.

With the lady who demanded to be seen even though she had cancelled her appointment, my reaction was irrational and I came close to losing my cool so I knew there must be a previous lifetime that needed clearing. It turned out that I had been her slave expected to do what she told me immediately. I was also blamed for things she had done but didn’t want to admit to. That life has been cleared so as the energies settle then the relationship should change.

Going inward is vital if you want to heal and I believe that anything can be healed if you are willing to do the deep work. Interestingly I have also been doing some more healing between myself and my mother as well as between myself and my children.

Last night I dreamt that I saw my mum sitting at a desk with another lady and they were both working. Mum had a baby with her and told me that she had a message she wanted me to look at and she handed a book to me. I sat down to read it but I couldn’t… there were no words visible to me on the page. I said to her that perhaps she could read it to me. She came and sat on a sofa with me, bringing the baby with her. I told her to surround herself in a gold bubble of energy filled with divine love and did the same for the baby and myself and when I was ready asked her to read the message to me. She said she couldn’t see it either and then I woke up.

I felt that mum was trying to give me a message but didn’t understand what it was so asked a close friend for some insight. This is what he said;

“The book with no words immediately said to me that no words external to you give you what you are looking for, it lies within you. The blank page is deliberate. In a way your mum is saying she is love by holding the baby but she is not the cause of your pain, it is your separation from creator, this is the source of all pain. We are all travellers seeking to reunite with our creator and our pain is a result of forgetting our divine selves.”

So I have taken some time to forgive my mum and even more importantly forgive myself for blaming my mum for the pain that I experienced within our relationship, so freeing each of us from attachment to each other through my pain.

My friends words are so important as what I have really realised is that the people who have shown me little respect and are very needy are actually showing a great degree of separation from creator. The more we go inward, understand our pain and heal it, the closer we move towards creator and the more respect we have for ourselves and others. It is our divine self that will lead us to the root cause of our pain so that we can heal and move to a much more heart centred way of being.